Now, I will tell a story of my happiest and one of the worst day of my life.
On a Wednesday evening, I took my dad’s car and I went out with my friends. We had a pleasant evening and I slept over in my friends place that night. I had a day-off next day from work so I was kinda happy to get some sleep. My phone’s battery was dead when we went back home, so I put it into charger in the living room and switched to silent mode because I didn’t want to disturb her flatmate if phone rings or whatever.
Next day, 9th of January, Thursday. I woke up at 9am, had a coffee and went to the living room to check my phone. I saw that my mother called me for 15 times. Obviously something was wrong. I immediately called her back. She told me, my grandpa was in the hospital and asked me to come to the hospital asap.
I got into the car and went straight to the hospital. I didn’t think it was that serious because he was healthy those days. Before I started my car, I check the Emirates site from my phone since it became a habit. I was doing that daily without paying attention. It was the same. No news.
I parked the car, started walking to the Emergency Room. I ran into my father outside. He told me what the situation was.
That morning around 4:30am, my grandpa went to the toilet and after a while my grandma woke up to some noises. When she checked the toilet, she saw my grandpa laying on the ground unconsciously. First she called for an ambulance then she called my mom immediately, asking for help. My grandpa had an hearth attack. When my parents went there, doctors were already performing a CPR on him for 15 minutes and that kept going for another 30 minutes. They took him to hospital by the time my grandpa had a pulse. On the way to the hospital, they lost the pulse and tried to get it again and they did. My grandpa was in the intensive care unit. Trying to hold on to his life. However, the doctors told my parents and grandma that his condition is very bad and we should we prepared for the bad news.
I went inside to see my mum and grandma. I hugged and tried to comfort them. I wanted to see my grandpa. I needed that. Maybe it was going to be the last time and few days earlier he told my grandma that he missed me and wanted to see me. However, they didn’t let me in to the intensive care room. I lied them that I came out of town with a plane and had to see him one last time. The security guy told me, he will take me in as soon as head doctor leaves the room.
I went back to ER. Hoping to get some good news or even chance to see him. Waiting and waiting. At one point, I checked my phone again since we had nothing to do but wait. I logged in, I was looking in to my phone’s screen with my teary eyes. That can’t be happening. I zoomed in and saw that message. YWBC….
I didn’t know how to react. My mom and grandma were next to me. I looked at my mother and said, “I’m going to Dubai ma! I’m in.”. Both of them were shocked as I was. They started crying and hugging each other. I immediately ran to my dad. He was talking on the phone with his colleague. “Dad, I’m moving to Dubai!” He was the same. Freaked out. We hugged each other and started to cry. In a normal situation, we probably would be just happy and not cry but it was such a emotional day for all of us. I called my best friend right after this. I was telling him the same. While I was on the phone, my dad called me, Onur, C’mon they let you in to the Intensive Care room. I hang-up on him and start running there.
Security guy told me the way to my grandpa’s room. It was a big place, I didn’t know which room or place was it. I asked one of the nurses where my grandpa was. She assisted me to his doctor. I talked to the doctor that I wanted to see him. He told me he will check on him one more time and then let me see him but be prepared for the bad news, he said. I was waiting in the corner to see him one last time probably.
Doctor came after few minutes and told me, “I’m sorry for your lost. He didn’t make it.”. Doc said I was able to see him on the way to morgue, if I want to.
Just like that.. He was gone. Couldn’t even see him just like he wanted.
Such a horrible time. My parents and grandma came there after they asked them over the voice tube and got the bad news.
Covered in white sheets, on the way to morgue. Medical attendant approached me asking if I wanted to see him. I wanted to. Maybe not like my grandpa wanted but yeah I needed to see him for the last time.
After crossing halls and corridors where nobody is around. They opened the sheets and left me alone with him for the last time. He was lying there, like he is asleep. There I was, by his side but not the way he wanted. That thought was harsh. Killing me inside. Not being there when he wanted.
We buried him next day. On his birthday, at the age of 70.
Rest in Peace Grandpa.
You will be missed.
Your first grandchild
Onur..